As a writer, things happen, occasionally, that simply compel me to write. Events transpire, and no other way of dealing with it is possible -- except to write.
When I woke up on Tuesday, Sept. 11, 2001, I remember the events meant something to me immediately because I'm from New Jersey, and I remember driving down hills in nearby towns and seeing the Twin Towers. I wondered if it would mean something to others who were not from the area. I did not have the foresight to recognize the sheer magnitude of the events.
Obviously, I couldn't have been more wrong. It was a worldwide impact felt in places I did not know to exist. I do not dare compare Sept. 11 to the events yesterday; it was simply a way of explaining my feelings.
I woke up and saw the news of the events at Virginia Tech. At first, it was one person reported dead and one other person reported injured in a shooting at a dorm on Virginia Tech's campus. As someone who is not a student of VT, my immediate concern was for Carolyn. Once we found out she was OK -- I don't want to say I stopped caring, but the immediacy of the tragedy was lifted from my shoulders.
Then the day progressed. The number grew from one dead to 11 dead. Then to 20 dead, and, ultimately, to 33 dead. When a death toll rises as high as it did Monday, it's hard to comprehend. It's hard to grasp the scope of the effects.
It wasn't too long before Anne and I found out people whom Carolyn knew personally were among those lost. When such an immense tragedy -- the worst mass shooting in U.S. history -- becomes personal, it's hard to know how to act. And it wasn't even really personal for us, not like it is for Carolyn and her many classmates and friends. But still, we felt pain -- yet it is nothing compared to pain felt in Blacksburg these past two days.
I only know someone who knows people who were taken too soon, and this is the pain I feel? How does one even being to come to terms with losing more than one person at once? Three years ago today, Grandma Rosie died. I've struggled with her death every day of my life since, and now there are people who lost multiple friends when losing one person is too much.
These losses were forced. When my grandmother died, she had been sick for a few weeks. We spent time in the hospital, and while you can never truly expect the death of a loved one, we were, at least, prepared to deal with the finality.
A madman broke into a school building and stole more than 30 lives. How does one come to terms with that truth? I'm angry at Cho Seung-hui for killing these people, and I know not one of them personally. After ruthlessly stealing 32 lives Monday morning, Cho turned the gun on himself and ended his own life.
There will be no trial, no true means of determining what was going through his mind. While some will argue that by taking his own life, he punished himself -- I disagree. Can any of the friends and families affected really take comfort in his actions? The families and friends have been denied the chance to confront the assailant in court and demand an explanation.
No comfort will come from knowing he will be punished for his actions. He broke the laws of our country, and he broke the laws of humanity with his actions. And by killing himself, he took away our right to demand justice -- to demand a reason why.
I am furious at him -- for taking the lives of 32 people who were too young to die, for taking the lives of sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, friends and family. The anger I feel must be nothing compared to those directly affected by the murders.
For that, I am deeply saddened.
I am also saddened by the way the media has handled its coverage. I'll argue until the day I die the media has a right to question people and say what it wants, but as a member of the media myself, I'm embarrassed by what I've seen.
The first incident occurred at just after 7 a.m. yesterday. One person was killed and another was injured. Campus police justifiably thought it was an isolated incident. Officials had reason to believe the killer left campus.
On more than one occasion on N.C. State's campus, shootings have taken place. No campus-wide lockdown was put in action. No one was told not to come to school or to avoid campus because they were believed to be isolated incidents. Large college campuses like State and VT are the size of small cities. Crimes happen.
It would have been irresponsible to assume mass killings were going to take place. Only panic would have ensued. The police had a responsibility to act cautiously. University officials notified the student body of the events by e-mail. I've received similar e-mails from NCSU on many occasions.
Yet, CNN.com decided it was responsible journalism to print the subhead "Officials wrongly believed killer left campus."
Bravo, CNN. Way to try to blame someone for the acts of a madman. Police did not believe it was going to be a mass killing because if the killer wanted to murder as many people as possible, he started his day in a dorm with almost 900 students living in it. He shot two and left. It was not irresponsible to do what VT officials decided to do.
Sometimes, I'm embarrassed to tell people I consider myself to be a journalist. Today is one of those days.
For every low point, there is an unbelievable high, though. Glancing around at the innumerable groups created on Facebook.com, the amount of support and unity expressed by colleges across the country is inspirational to say the absolute least. Pictures are floating around with the VT logo on a black ribbon. Underneath the VT logo is the logo of various colleges, and underneath that are the words, "Today, we are all Hokies."
The best side of humanity often comes from its worst side, and that's been evident through this tragedy. I couldn't suppress the tears when I saw the pictures, and when I saw the number of members in such groups reaching as high as 27,000.
We are capable of some remarkable things sometimes. It will be indescribably difficult to move on and persevere through this tragedy -- that's just the reality of the situation. But through it all, Carolyn, VT students and everyone affected by this unspeakable act of horror, you are in the prayers of anyone who prays for the foreseeable future.
Hokies, the Pack (and everyone else for that matter) has your back.


When I woke up on Tuesday, Sept. 11, 2001, I remember the events meant something to me immediately because I'm from New Jersey, and I remember driving down hills in nearby towns and seeing the Twin Towers. I wondered if it would mean something to others who were not from the area. I did not have the foresight to recognize the sheer magnitude of the events.
Obviously, I couldn't have been more wrong. It was a worldwide impact felt in places I did not know to exist. I do not dare compare Sept. 11 to the events yesterday; it was simply a way of explaining my feelings.
I woke up and saw the news of the events at Virginia Tech. At first, it was one person reported dead and one other person reported injured in a shooting at a dorm on Virginia Tech's campus. As someone who is not a student of VT, my immediate concern was for Carolyn. Once we found out she was OK -- I don't want to say I stopped caring, but the immediacy of the tragedy was lifted from my shoulders.
Then the day progressed. The number grew from one dead to 11 dead. Then to 20 dead, and, ultimately, to 33 dead. When a death toll rises as high as it did Monday, it's hard to comprehend. It's hard to grasp the scope of the effects.
It wasn't too long before Anne and I found out people whom Carolyn knew personally were among those lost. When such an immense tragedy -- the worst mass shooting in U.S. history -- becomes personal, it's hard to know how to act. And it wasn't even really personal for us, not like it is for Carolyn and her many classmates and friends. But still, we felt pain -- yet it is nothing compared to pain felt in Blacksburg these past two days.
I only know someone who knows people who were taken too soon, and this is the pain I feel? How does one even being to come to terms with losing more than one person at once? Three years ago today, Grandma Rosie died. I've struggled with her death every day of my life since, and now there are people who lost multiple friends when losing one person is too much.
These losses were forced. When my grandmother died, she had been sick for a few weeks. We spent time in the hospital, and while you can never truly expect the death of a loved one, we were, at least, prepared to deal with the finality.
A madman broke into a school building and stole more than 30 lives. How does one come to terms with that truth? I'm angry at Cho Seung-hui for killing these people, and I know not one of them personally. After ruthlessly stealing 32 lives Monday morning, Cho turned the gun on himself and ended his own life.
There will be no trial, no true means of determining what was going through his mind. While some will argue that by taking his own life, he punished himself -- I disagree. Can any of the friends and families affected really take comfort in his actions? The families and friends have been denied the chance to confront the assailant in court and demand an explanation.
No comfort will come from knowing he will be punished for his actions. He broke the laws of our country, and he broke the laws of humanity with his actions. And by killing himself, he took away our right to demand justice -- to demand a reason why.
I am furious at him -- for taking the lives of 32 people who were too young to die, for taking the lives of sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, friends and family. The anger I feel must be nothing compared to those directly affected by the murders.
For that, I am deeply saddened.
I am also saddened by the way the media has handled its coverage. I'll argue until the day I die the media has a right to question people and say what it wants, but as a member of the media myself, I'm embarrassed by what I've seen.
The first incident occurred at just after 7 a.m. yesterday. One person was killed and another was injured. Campus police justifiably thought it was an isolated incident. Officials had reason to believe the killer left campus.
On more than one occasion on N.C. State's campus, shootings have taken place. No campus-wide lockdown was put in action. No one was told not to come to school or to avoid campus because they were believed to be isolated incidents. Large college campuses like State and VT are the size of small cities. Crimes happen.
It would have been irresponsible to assume mass killings were going to take place. Only panic would have ensued. The police had a responsibility to act cautiously. University officials notified the student body of the events by e-mail. I've received similar e-mails from NCSU on many occasions.
Yet, CNN.com decided it was responsible journalism to print the subhead "Officials wrongly believed killer left campus."
Bravo, CNN. Way to try to blame someone for the acts of a madman. Police did not believe it was going to be a mass killing because if the killer wanted to murder as many people as possible, he started his day in a dorm with almost 900 students living in it. He shot two and left. It was not irresponsible to do what VT officials decided to do.
Sometimes, I'm embarrassed to tell people I consider myself to be a journalist. Today is one of those days.
For every low point, there is an unbelievable high, though. Glancing around at the innumerable groups created on Facebook.com, the amount of support and unity expressed by colleges across the country is inspirational to say the absolute least. Pictures are floating around with the VT logo on a black ribbon. Underneath the VT logo is the logo of various colleges, and underneath that are the words, "Today, we are all Hokies."
The best side of humanity often comes from its worst side, and that's been evident through this tragedy. I couldn't suppress the tears when I saw the pictures, and when I saw the number of members in such groups reaching as high as 27,000.
We are capable of some remarkable things sometimes. It will be indescribably difficult to move on and persevere through this tragedy -- that's just the reality of the situation. But through it all, Carolyn, VT students and everyone affected by this unspeakable act of horror, you are in the prayers of anyone who prays for the foreseeable future.
Hokies, the Pack (and everyone else for that matter) has your back.


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